I am so glad that I am not what my feelings tell me I am. Feelings are so fickle. Monday was one of those kind of days. If I would have given in to my feelings I probably would have thrown in the towel as a pastor, wife, friend, mother, and grandmother. I was feeling like a failure in pretty much every area of my life. Had some horrible thing happened to bring this on? Not really.
Why do we feel this way sometimes? I know for me, when I don’t have my quiet time with the Lord, it effects my entire day. I got up Monday morning and got busy doing stuff instead of taking time for God. As crazy as that may sound, it really does make a big difference in me. When I spend time with God, it helps me think more clearly and get the focus off of me. Believe me, I need help not thinking about me.
My desire is to please God with my life. In order to do that, I must spend time with Him on a regular basis. Not because it’s what good little Christians do, but because I need His presence in my life every day. We become like those we spend time with. The more time I spend getting to know God, the more I become like Him. I am so thankful for a personal relationship with God. He loves me and doesn’t kick me when I’m down. He’s that loving, gentle Father that says “Come on Baby Girl, we’ve got this. Get up and try again.”
I’m glad that I know what God’s word says about who I am. Will I still have days that I doubt or question who I am? Probably. But as I trust in God I know that He is leading me on the path of life that He has for me. I really can do whatever He calls me to do. He is my strength, therefore I choose to listen to His voice instead of my fickle feelings. So late Monday afternoon I decided to pick myself up by my bootstraps and got my focus off of me and back on God. What a difference it made for me. What helps you to stay focused?
Proverbs 3:5,6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths.”